i mean i can't say "I know you'll never kill someone" because of a lot of reasons, so i can't be sure, but I can say "I know you'd never purposely kill someone" based on what i know about you. and if we're being pedantic, i don't think you'd ever kill anyone because of what you are but rather i'd blame this manor and its influences and say if it ever happened, it'd be because of what you were forced to do.
sorry. i've seen a lot of death. died a lot. there's nuance?
but if you're asking if i think you're going to kill someone because you're a werewolf specifically and why i believe that's untrue, it's because you're a good person. and you don't want to? so you're doing everything you can to keep that from happening.
[ Dom couldn't be more thankful that he doesn't have a roommate right now, vision blurry as he keeps reading, wiping his eyes with the sleeves of his stupid uniform. He can't even blame these tears on a new moon. ]
[ He said that already. Dom goes silent for a while, a little bit of everything happening in his head while he types. ]
A werewolf killed him The same one that infected me I don't know remember old I was exactly but I was really young I think that's why my scar looks so fucked up
babe, you are nowhere near the level of evil needed to be considered a monster i've dealt with monsters. you are not one. and never will be, in my eyes
[At least, he hopes. Because he puts his heart in Dom's hands these days and it'd be so easy to have it crushed. Theo can deal with all sorts of physical hurt, deliberate or not, but the only things that would actually break him are the things good people like Dom would never do. He's just not the type.]
some things, yeah. lives, really it's like if i dig, i can get it back but i don't want to dig i'd rather just carry on
[ Dom isn't convinced that he's not a monster — if he isn't, that means the creature that murdered his father and cursed him is innocent, too. It's just not a reality he can live in. ]
[ And he can't even begin to imagine what that's like. Dying over and over, having one life after another... It makes it hard to match Theo and Teddie in his head. It makes him scared that Teddie might end up having a similar fate.
Or maybe he's been lying about it to Dom this whole time. Maybe he didn't know about it, so it's not actually lying. Maybe— ]
Willem only gets worse every time I cross paths with him. I've been trying to avoid him for the last while but there were some occasions he'd put me in a position where I felt helpless and hopeless. He'd find and hurt the people I loved and cared for. So I wanted to kill him for it. I still do, if I'm being honest. But I know it's not going to do anything until I can break this curse.
but why do you think you're a monster when you're just protecting yourself too? you're learning how to be yourself on your own here you can't blame yourself for your own reactions either
That's not the same... It didn't even matter that Jules and Felix were my friends, I still tried to hurt them All I ever do is try to hurt people My moms had to use silver to make sure I stopped
yeah but they're your friends but did you trust them? you said before that the only people who've been successful besides us in helping you were your moms you don't have those here. of course you're gonna feel on edge? scared? we do a lot of things when we're scared that we wouldn't otherwise
if the two people you trust most still had silver in their pockets of course you'll be wary of your friends too it doesn't mean you're bad
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Because of what I am
Be honest
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why?
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How can u be sure
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i can't say "I know you'll never kill someone" because of a lot of reasons, so i can't be sure, but I can say "I know you'd never purposely kill someone" based on what i know about you. and if we're being pedantic, i don't think you'd ever kill anyone because of what you are but rather i'd blame this manor and its influences and say if it ever happened, it'd be because of what you were forced to do.
sorry. i've seen a lot of death. died a lot. there's nuance?
but if you're asking if i think you're going to kill someone because you're a werewolf specifically and why i believe that's untrue, it's because you're a good person. and you don't want to? so you're doing everything you can to keep that from happening.
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U don't know about my father
How he died
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i can come to you if it's easier
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I'm fine
We can talk here
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we don’t have to if you don’t want to
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[ He said that already. Dom goes silent for a while, a little bit of everything happening in his head while he types. ]
A werewolf killed him
The same one that infected me
I don't know remember old I was exactly but I was really young
I think that's why my scar looks so fucked up
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that's a lot. i wouldn't blame you for being fearful of what it might make you
but dom, i know you're not a monster.
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Maybe I blocked it out
Brains do that sometimes right?
[ Is he rambling? ]
U do know I'm a monster
U've seen it
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you're not a monster. you're a werewolf.
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[ Oh no, not the self-hatred reveal ]
Has it happened to u
Blocking out things
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i've dealt with monsters. you are not one. and never will be, in my eyes
[At least, he hopes. Because he puts his heart in Dom's hands these days and it'd be so easy to have it crushed. Theo can deal with all sorts of physical hurt, deliberate or not, but the only things that would actually break him are the things good people like Dom would never do. He's just not the type.]
some things, yeah. lives, really
it's like if i dig, i can get it back but i don't want to dig
i'd rather just carry on
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Do u remember killing anyone?
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Typically I was the one getting murdered, though
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Sorry
[ And he can't even begin to imagine what that's like. Dying over and over, having one life after another... It makes it hard to match Theo and Teddie in his head. It makes him scared that Teddie might end up having a similar fate.
Or maybe he's been lying about it to Dom this whole time. Maybe he didn't know about it, so it's not actually lying. Maybe— ]
Why were u trying to kill
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Do you think I'm a monster for that?
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Ur not a monster for that
No way
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not fully in control and acting out of emotion
still don't think i'm a monster for that either?
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U wouldn't want him dead if he wasn't hurting people right?
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but why do you think you're a monster when you're just protecting yourself too?
you're learning how to be yourself on your own here
you can't blame yourself for your own reactions either
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It didn't even matter that Jules and Felix were my friends, I still tried to hurt them
All I ever do is try to hurt people
My moms had to use silver to make sure I stopped
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you said before that the only people who've been successful besides us in helping you were your moms
you don't have those here. of course you're gonna feel on edge? scared?
we do a lot of things when we're scared that we wouldn't otherwise
if the two people you trust most still had silver in their pockets
of course you'll be wary of your friends too
it doesn't mean you're bad
just scared. i promise
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I wish they could meet u
My moms
Teddie
That's probably weird
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