[ And he can't even begin to imagine what that's like. Dying over and over, having one life after another... It makes it hard to match Theo and Teddie in his head. It makes him scared that Teddie might end up having a similar fate.
Or maybe he's been lying about it to Dom this whole time. Maybe he didn't know about it, so it's not actually lying. Maybe— ]
Willem only gets worse every time I cross paths with him. I've been trying to avoid him for the last while but there were some occasions he'd put me in a position where I felt helpless and hopeless. He'd find and hurt the people I loved and cared for. So I wanted to kill him for it. I still do, if I'm being honest. But I know it's not going to do anything until I can break this curse.
but why do you think you're a monster when you're just protecting yourself too? you're learning how to be yourself on your own here you can't blame yourself for your own reactions either
That's not the same... It didn't even matter that Jules and Felix were my friends, I still tried to hurt them All I ever do is try to hurt people My moms had to use silver to make sure I stopped
yeah but they're your friends but did you trust them? you said before that the only people who've been successful besides us in helping you were your moms you don't have those here. of course you're gonna feel on edge? scared? we do a lot of things when we're scared that we wouldn't otherwise
if the two people you trust most still had silver in their pockets of course you'll be wary of your friends too it doesn't mean you're bad
i appreciate that i feel like i'd rather procrastinate than get back to trying to break it but i'll get around to it. and i'd like it - having you there to help
we can leave jules out tho his vibe would harsh us out
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Typically I was the one getting murdered, though
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Sorry
[ And he can't even begin to imagine what that's like. Dying over and over, having one life after another... It makes it hard to match Theo and Teddie in his head. It makes him scared that Teddie might end up having a similar fate.
Or maybe he's been lying about it to Dom this whole time. Maybe he didn't know about it, so it's not actually lying. Maybe— ]
Why were u trying to kill
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Do you think I'm a monster for that?
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Ur not a monster for that
No way
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not fully in control and acting out of emotion
still don't think i'm a monster for that either?
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U wouldn't want him dead if he wasn't hurting people right?
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but why do you think you're a monster when you're just protecting yourself too?
you're learning how to be yourself on your own here
you can't blame yourself for your own reactions either
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It didn't even matter that Jules and Felix were my friends, I still tried to hurt them
All I ever do is try to hurt people
My moms had to use silver to make sure I stopped
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you said before that the only people who've been successful besides us in helping you were your moms
you don't have those here. of course you're gonna feel on edge? scared?
we do a lot of things when we're scared that we wouldn't otherwise
if the two people you trust most still had silver in their pockets
of course you'll be wary of your friends too
it doesn't mean you're bad
just scared. i promise
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I wish they could meet u
My moms
Teddie
That's probably weird
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but i'm glad to have you here
and i hope you know i'm here for you too
for whatever you need
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U know u can count on me too
My magic sucks but if I can help with the curse...
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i feel like i'd rather procrastinate than get back to trying to break it
but i'll get around to it. and i'd like it - having you there to help
we can leave jules out tho
his vibe would harsh us out
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But u gotta get rid of it
That's how u get rid of Willem too right?
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this was secondary. he put it on me when he realized i was starting to figure out my magic
the other curse is
i don't know
i guess it's in me and in him
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U can't do anything about that one?
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i don't really remember the specifics anymore just...
it was a really fucked up spell
[... maybe august can help.]
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In February?
It was all gone for a while
[ The... implication being that he could get rid of the werewolf, too. uhm ]
Everything here is fucked up anyway
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i didn't like losing my magic though
you sure you don't want me to come hang with you?
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Or the stupid powers we got
[ Well. Theo was one of the smart few who held off on the library's temporary solution. ]
U can come but I'm boring today
[ read: sad ]
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for obvious reasons
are you in your room?
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[ ... But it helped. ]
Yea
Where are u
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i'm kinda messy from the art room but i figure you won't mind
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Are u bringing ur art
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knock knock, i'm heeeeere
[Okay, he's here in 45 seconds but he was close enough to send that and then arrive to knock.]
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