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[wicka]

Why did u tell Iggy?

[chokedout]

tell him what

[wicka]

That we had sex when I was [ hhhhh ] not myself

[chokedout]

he went through something kinda similar
it
you know

I had to talk to someone and
hey
i swore him to secrecy

[wicka]

U should have told me
I'm so fucking embarrassed

Who else knows?

[chokedout]

babe, i might've but you dumped me in between and i sort of forgot about it
i'm sorry. he's my best friend.

i don't keep things from cellar but i haven't like, explicitly told her either
i don't talk about you to anyone else like that. i don't even like thinking i might say too much about you being a werewolf, for your safety

[wicka]

Well everyone knows I'm a werewolf now
I don't want them to know I
Do that stuff
When I'm not even in control
They already call me a killer
I don't wanna be seen as an even worse freak than I already am

[chokedout]

You're not a freak

and do you mean that as the commune werewolf or as you are werewolf?
what people know you as

[wicka]

They know I'm an actual werewolf
It's how I killed one of them

[chokedout]

I won't talk about you or us to anyone else, I promise

[wicka]

OK
Thanks

[chokedout]

are we good?

[wicka]

We're good
I'm just

Never mind

[chokedout]

you can say whatever's on your mind, babe

[wicka]

U say I'm not a freak but it's how I feel
I don't know how to fix it

[chokedout]

I think, if I'm being honest
that that's going to take some time.

You used to keep that side of you private, a secret.
It's not anymore. It's okay to feel weird about that
It's okay to feel different

You're not a freak. You're just unique
but you have people on your side.
People like you, whether that's witches or werewolves

It'll take time
but you'll feel better in time
okay?

[wicka]

I know I keep saying this
And u keep trying to help

[ And he wishes he could show how much it's helped him, up until something awful happens or he just spirals on his own. How do you apologize for something that's probably programmed into you, just like everything that happens under the full moon, or around the fucking wrath sigil? Dom feels good, then he's angry, then he's sad, rinse and repeat. ]

Sorry

[chokedout]

how about this babe
no apologizing to me for 24 hours
(this is my time to apologize to you, anyway)

if you feel the need to apologize, redirect it
into a sentence or a feeling, something else

i want to help but if i'm also not helpful
just tell me too, okay?
bc i love you

[wicka]

I love u
I will

How do I do that?
Redirect into a sentence

[chokedout]

sort of like this:

instead of me saying "I'm sorry" again to you because I shared what I did

I would say something like "I keep thinking about how that made you feel, and I don't want you to feel that way again." or "I keep thinking about my mistake and it upsets me, but I want you to know that I love you and I never meant to upset you".

does that make sense?

[wicka]

I guess

So like

Telling Iggy what I did to u made me really upset
But I don't wanna be mad at u
Or to be mad at all

I don't want people to know if I don't tell them Teddie

Even if they're Iggy

[chokedout]

yeah, like that.

you can be upset with me, dom. even if you forgive me, it's okay to be upset
I don't want to make you upset again so... this is how we learn how to work together
it's important. because i want us to stay together

i'll be clearer with boundaries.

[wicka]

I don't want to be upset though
Every time I get like that I ruin things

How do I stop?

[chokedout]

we talk about it, maybe?
we have to build some trust
how does it work with you and teddie?
how did you two balance thing?

[wicka]

We kinda just fought a lot
In the beginning at least
Then we figured out how to avoid that

[ There were still some fights, just not constant break-ups. ]

Back home I didn't have to worry about my secrets getting out so much
Not like it keeps happening here