( he hates how easy it is, to fall into routines he kept with nick and only nick. the shoving needles into his body whenever oliver feels like it, the easy way oliver and theo just settle into. touching each other like this. having conversations and sharing kisses, passing cigarette smoke between them.

it makes him angry in the same vein it makes him happy, because theo's a sucker but oliver's falling for him in a way that doesn't. feel very safe, but theo's given him no reason to worry about feeling that way either. )

I'll go with you, but I won't fuck you. ( he's close to running out of time, for quota this month. after the pit and nick leaving, oliver's felt minimally motivated to fuck around. he has, once or twice, but quota doesn't concern him right now anyway.

he's never had to think about it before and he's not going to bother thinking about it now. he'll sort himself out eventually. )

No offense to you, you know you're hot shit. I just don't feel that human yet.